I HEARD HER IN MY HEAD

Ok, so I think it was....emmmm probably Sunday or Monday that I moved my daughter out of my room. I was cleaning my room and during the process I looked around and thought to myself "Yanno, I'd have a lot more space in here if her bassinet was in her room." So I moved that, then I thought to myself "Yanno, I'd have even more space if I moved her organizer in her room too." So I moved that. Now all that's left of her in my room is her Fisherprice Swing. I honestly thought the process of moving her out of our room was gonna be harder than it actually was. The first couple of nights I put her in her room and let her sleep in there...I think she only woke up once...when it got early (usually when she wakes up anyway) The first time I heard her cry, I was sleep and I jumped up and looked around my room. I remember thinking to myself "Why the hell does she sound so far away?" Ummmm, yea...her room is all way at the other end of the hall. I'm so used to her being in the room and hearing her cry loud and clear. But anyway, last night was the first night that she slept in her room while my husband was home (he works nights) and he sleeps with the fan on which makes it hard to hear.....anything. Right before we went to sleep, he was like "You better hear my baby if she cries." I was like..."Whatever I always hear her." So real early this morning she woke up...and I didn't hear her cry like I normally do. It was like I knew she was crying. I mean, I was so deep in sleep I think I was almost comatose...and I was having a really good dream at that. And...like I said my husband had the fan on, and out of nowhere I heard this cry in my head. It literally interrupted my dream. It sounded like an echo. I know I didn't hear her cause when I woke up I couldn't hear jack. But I got up and got out of bed and walked down the hall to her room and she was in her bassinet all curled up in the corner crying. I picked her up and took her to my room (our normal morning routine) and she went right back to sleep.

Lyfe (A VOICE THAT BURNS) Jennings

Ok, I wrote about one of my favorite singers, Alicia Keys....so I figured that since I just got the new Lyfe Jennings album I'd write about that too.

First I gotta go back to the beginning. His first CD I brought without hearing a single song, without knowing anything about him or what kind of music I would be listening to. I mean, he was holding a guitar on the album cover so for all I knew he could have been a country singer...but since I like all genres of music it really wouldn't have mattered anyway. I brought the CD because a fellow poet in my poetry group rant and raved about it. And I was curious....so when I was in Best Buy and saw that the album was only $9.99 I figured...what the hell, I can't go wrong for $10 bucks.

I got it home....downloaded it on to my computer and listened to every song. After listening to the CD, it really could have cost me $50 and I would have still felt like I was the one getting over. I don't care what nobody says....there ain't nobody out right now that can make yo ass feel good about being stuck up. Lol. I know that's wrong (especially coming from a law enforcement official) but whatever.

Ok, anyway on to this new CD. I think some artist because of all they've been through just get a pass at that whole sophomore jinx thing....I have a very good ear for music and this album WILL go platinum. This man has a voice that burns. Whenever I buy a CD and I really feel the lyrics to the songs, I always look to see if the artist wrote them because it's so easy to sing somebody else's words. I wasn't surprised to see that he wrote all his own stuff. Let's just be for real....Who else can write what you feel better than you.

So anyway, I say all this to say that although I'm sure everybody & Bush's momma has heard S.E.X but just incase somebody is reading this and happens to find themselves in a music store and sees this album....BUY IT! And you will be needing two, cause you gonna be mad as hell if one gets scratched.

My new baby girl

On April 9, 2006 at 10:34 pm I became a Mommy! Most of the people I talk to on the internet didn't even know I was pregnant...and that's mainly because during my pregnancy I really didn't have time to sign on the internet. So much has happend in my life within the last year and a half that I'm just now getting time to write about it.

Let's see...I graduated from the Police Academy, then got hired at my department, found out I was pregnant, brought a new house, and then finally had her on April 9th. I named her Khaliah. She was 5lbs 5oz (yea she was tiny) and the most beautiful thing I ever saw in my life. My pregnancy couldn't have come at a worse time but was the best thing that ever happend to me. Before she was born I was fearless, but she came and put a whole new perspective on my life and my career. I have a completely different outlook on my job knowing that I have to make it home to her.

I could sit and write novels about why and how much I love her, but one of my favorite things that she does is...right before she wakes up (usuallly when she's coming out of a deep sleep) she'll smile. She'll start off with a lil half smile, then a lil grin, then finally a big ol' hard smile. It cracks me up. I keep hoping that she doesn't grow out of it, but for some reason I just can't picture her being 17 years old and still smiling in her sleep.

I have never been punked by someone so tiny in my life....she can't even talk yet and she got me running in circles tryin to please her. It's crazy. Anyway Happy Mother's Day to all the Mom's and Mom's to be.

Alicia (dat gal can sang) Keys

If you know me then you are WELL aware that I am a die hard Alicia Keys FAN. It was my absolute intention to buy this CD and the DVD the day that it came out...but my pockets said that the road to hell was paved with "good intent". Needless to say that I didn't get it that day...but TRUST AND BELIEVE that I made a point to get it. And if I had known (I don't know why I thought anything else) that it was going to be as amazing as it is, I would have begged borrowed and stole to get it.

My favorite song on the CD is one of the new songs called "Every little bit hurts". But the way she sang "If I was your woman"....OH MY GAWD!!!!! Oh, and I should also mention that she has a song with Common and Mos Def....Just the fact that I said Common, Alicia Keys and Mos Def are on the same track should be enough to make you get up NOW and go get the CD.

I didn't get a chance to see the performance on MTV...but will be buying the DVD. Cause I'm sure the performance with Mos Def, Common and Alicia is just that more amazing to see than it is to hear. I'm sure there are laws that prohibit me from playing this CD as much as I already have....but OH WELL....ARREST ME, cause I'm gonna JAM!!!

Tupac's Rose (the rose)

TUPAC’S ROSE

He was a soldier in a lyrical battlefield
Putting his heart on the front-line
A victim of industry politics
and a militant mind
As I press rewind
he speaks saying only God can judge him
tears replace the space
where a smile had once been

It’s the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It’s the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance
It’s the one who won’t be taken
who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live

Nobody deserves to die from shots to the chest
No matter if they live by codes of the streets
When will people learn life is bigger than beef?
How can we have hope? When there ain’t none left
Especially when as children the only thing promised was death
Who knew that a rose that grew from concrete,
Would inspire everyone it touched
Who knew I’d ever miss a stranger so much

Just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun’s love
in the spring becomes the rose

Unique Verses January 23, 2004
Italicized words taken from ‘The Rose’ by Bette Midler

You ignorant ass muthaf**BEEP**

Ok, I know this story is old...I've been meaning to comment on it but I've been busy. It seems that our former Secretary of Education, William Bennett made a comment (on air mind you) that to me proved just how uneducated he is. Here's the conversation between him and a caller.


From the September 28 broadcast of Salem Radio Network's Bill Bennett's Morning in America:

CALLER: I noticed the national media, you know, they talk a lot about the loss of revenue, or the inability of the government to fund Social Security, and I was curious, and I've read articles in recent months here, that the abortions that have happened since Roe v. Wade, the lost revenue from the people who have been aborted in the last 30-something years, could fund Social Security as we know it today. And the media just doesn't -- never touches this at all.

BENNETT: Assuming they're all productive citizens?

CALLER: Assuming that they are. Even if only a portion of them were, it would be an enormous amount of revenue.

BENNETT: Maybe, maybe, but we don't know what the costs would be, too. I think as -- abortion disproportionately occur among single women? No.

CALLER: I don't know the exact statistics, but quite a bit are, yeah.

BENNETT: All right, well, I mean, I just don't know. I would not argue for the pro-life position based on this, because you don't know. I mean, it cuts both -- you know, one of the arguments in this book Freakonomics that they make is that the declining crime rate, you know, they deal with this hypothesis, that one of the reasons crime is down is that abortion is up. Well --

CALLER: Well, I don't think that statistic is accurate.

BENNETT: Well, I don't think it is either, I don't think it is either, because first of all, there is just too much that you don't know. But I do know that it's true that if you wanted to reduce crime, you could -- if that were your sole purpose, you could abort every black baby in this country, and your crime rate would go down. That would be an impossible, ridiculous, and morally reprehensible thing to do, but your crime rate would go down. So these far-out, these far-reaching, extensive extrapolations are, I think, tricky.

Bill Bennett's Morning in America airs on approximately 115 radio stations with an estimated weekly audience of 1.25 million listeners.


Ok, now it's my turn...First of all it just blows my mind that this man was at any time our Secretary of Education (education being the key word), but then again our current president was a "C" student.

"Crime" is too broad of a term to equate with just black people, yes black people do commit crime but some of the most heinous crimes committed in this country were committed by races other than blacks...case and point: Ted Bundy, David Berkowitz aka Son of Sam, Eddie Gein aka the original Psycho, Charles Manson, Theodore Kaczynski aka The Unibomber, and Jeffery Dahmer...just to name a few. And let's not forget Columbine and Sept. 11th...Hey Mr. Bennett, I think you're tryin to abort the wrong people.

I was listening to the radio and two personalities were saying that if this comment had been made by Dave Chapelle then black people would have been on the floor laughing, and you know what...they're right. But the difference is (as one of them said) Dave Chapelle is a comedian who gets paid to make fun of people, a lot of times its black people...sometimes it's white people. But we as black people know that when Dave Chapelle (a black man) says it, he's making fun of the stereo-types that white people have about black people. When a politician says it....it's because he really feels that way.

I do commend this idiot for one thing though....at least he said it! We all know Bush and the majority of Politicians think the same thing...but they all deny their hatred and fear of black people. Now if we could just get Bush to do the same we wouldn't need Kanye West to go on anymore telethons and embarrass Austin Powers with un-scripted comments.

By the way...this is what you're doing to your child when you abort them: New Page 2
I just had to throw that in there because I am strongly against abortion (for myself that is) you do what the hell you want with your own kids. Talk about morally reprehensible!

I smell another gangsta movie

If you haven't heard by now...Beanie Sigel is in the news again. This time not for anything that he did (as far as we know), this time it's family related. If you don't know the story....here it is:

Moody Found Safe After Kidnapping

Derry Died Of Multiple Gunshot Wounds
POSTED: 7:47 am EDT October 4, 2005
UPDATED: 7:13 am EDT October 6, 2005

PHILADELPHIA -- Wallace Moody, a man allegedly kidnapped who had ties to a rap star's stepfather, has been released by his captors and is now back home.
Moody is a friend of rapper Beanie Sigel's stepfather, Sam Derry, who found shot to death with his body set on fire about 4 a.m. Tuesday morning.

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Moody told police he was released late last night. He was taken to a local hospital with minor injuries and spoke with police before he was cleared to go back home.

Police had no comment about Moody's abduction, his release and the search for suspects.
On Wednesday, police said Moody was taken as he was leaving his North Third Street home.
Police said that just before 6 a.m. Wednesday, two dark-colored sedans pulled up to Moody's house. As Moody was walking out of his home, three men, who were wearing gray hooded shirts, approached Moody at gunpoint, forced him into one of the sedans and headed toward Cheltenham Avenue.

Late Wednesday afternoon, police towed away Moody's car and took a smashed cell phone in for evidence.

Derry's family members told NBC 10 News that they are offended by reports that his death had anything to do with Sigel's recent acquittal on attempted homicide charges.
Wednesday morning, police impounded a car found on the 1200 block of Sydney Street that is believed to be owned by Derry. It was not immediately known if Derry had driven the car just prior to his death. Investigators believe that Derry was killed somewhere else and then dumped in the Forrest Avenue alley.

Sigel remained inside his mother's home Wednesday, refusing to talk about the brutal killing of his 46-year-old stepfather.

"I can say Bennie, as well as the entire family, is devastated. There is hope whoever committed this crime is brought to justice," said Sigel's attorney, Fortunato Perri Jr.

Perri, who represented the rapper during last month's retrial on attempted homicide charges, said that he has heard speculation that Derry's killing could be some sort of retaliation against his client, but he doesn't think those rumors are true.

"There is nothing I'm aware of that Bennie has done or been through that would link him to this tragic situation," Perri said.

Police are continuing to look for a white van or sport utility vehicle that witnesses reported seeing near the scene at 8100 Forrest Ave., where Derry's body was dumped and set on fire.
A witness on Tuesday told NBC 10 News that she saw several men dump Derry's body in a secluded driveway.

"I (saw) a van drive up. I saw two people dragging something, three people just dragging something into the trash," said Denise Calhoun.

"I heard a whoosh, a big whoosh and then all of a sudden it was this fire. I said, 'Oh, they're putting the trash on fire back here.' But I said, 'Oh, my goodness, that's no trash, that's a body,'" Calhoun said. Calhoun said she saw a leg or an arm and called 911.

The body was so badly burned that authorities, at first, were not even sure of the victim's race.
In late September, Sigel (right)was acquitted on charges he shot and nearly killed a man two years ago on a crowded Philadelphia street.

That trial began only a few weeks after his release from federal prison on a federal weapons charge that stemmed from a 2002 traffic stop in Philadelphia. He faces yet another city trial for allegedly breaking a man's eye socket during a January 2003 argument.

The 31-year-old rapper, born Dwight Grant, has a long arrest record that dates to his youth in south Philadelphia. His three albums -- "The Truth" in 2000, "The Reason" in 2001 and "The B. Coming" -- each hit the top five on the Billboard album chart. Many of Sigel's songs depict guns, drugs and violence.

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If you live in Phila or the surrounding areas, you've already heard the story and most likely all the hype surrounding Beanie Sigel. I hear people saying "You know it's bout to be a war up in philly now!" or "You know Beanie gonna get back at dem niggaz!" Now I'm not to say whether he is or isn't, cause I honestly don't care. But I personally think Beanie has enough legal problems right now...but then again, more court cases=more record sales. Which is why I'm positively sure that there will be a "Based on a true story" movie coming out in which the whole situation is explained. He can call this one "STATE PROPERTY: INDITED"